Silver Chopsticks and Iron Rice Bowl

Dear Lu Lu,

When you’re frustrated and show your temper, you often say to me, “I can’t help it.” And I believe you—I truly do. I was the same way. It took me a long time to build emotional intelligence and learn how to manage my temper. None of us are perfect, and that’s okay. But the earlier we realize that, the sooner we can find healthier ways to cope and grow.

Below is my story:

 “When I was born, I was like a true angel—lying there peacefully, making no sound except for my breath, calm like a quiet sea. But once I reached toddlerhood, my true personality began to show—a stubborn spirit with a fiery temper. When I got angry, my face would turn bright red, and no one dared to provoke me.

All my siblings knew about my temper, and they loved to tease and trick me—especially at the dinner table. For them, it was a fun game. I would throw my China rice bowl to the ground, creating a loud crash, and they would all burst into laughter. Encouraged by their reactions, I did it again and again.

My mother, however, was far from amused. She not only felt sorry for the broken bowls but also grew increasingly frustrated with my behavior. Yet no punishment seemed to work. With so many children to care for, she was exhausted. Eventually, she bought me an iron rice bowl, thinking at least this one wouldn’t break.

My father, on the other hand, was deeply dissatisfied with her solution. He believed iron bowls were for beggars—not for his sweet girl. But he had no better alternative, so in silent protest, he went to the silver shop and bought me a pair of silver chopsticks.

From then on, I stopped breaking bowls—partly because I couldn’t, and partly because the fun had shifted. I spent a joyful childhood happily banging my silver chopsticks against my iron rice bowl.”

I’m grateful to my parents for how they handled the situation. But as I grew older, I began to ask myself: why was I so upset, and why couldn’t I control my temper?

Over time, I came to realize that I feel things more intensely—and more quickly—than others. When a strong emotion hits, especially when I feel attacked or mistreated, it can overwhelm the rational part of my brain before I even have time to think just like you said, “I can’t help it.” .

I also learned that anger often acts as a mask for other emotions—sadness, fear, anxiety, even shame. It’s not just about being mad. Sometimes, it’s about being hurt in ways I didn’t know how to express.

I know you’re still too young to fully understand or deal with this right now. Because growth in emotional intelligence doesn’t happen overnight, and it’s okay to have setbacks along the way. But I promise you, with each passing day and each year, you will get better and better. You’ll still feel upset and frustrated at times, but you’ll learn how to cope with those feelings better.

I want you to understand that there is nothing wrong with you. And there’s nothing wrong with others teasing you, either. We are all unique individuals, especially as children. We all need to learn and grow, to love and accept one another, and to be kind to each other.

Popo will always be here to support you. Anything that happens in your life can only make you stronger and wiser. I love you very much.